Im extremely sorry
Ive not been very active at all. I have my main exams coming up in May so im busy trying to get all this school work done in time to study properly. Thought I won’t lie to you all, I’ve just been in a bad state these months. I worked so hard to keep myself motivated and to work my ass off through the emotional, physical and mental areas of my life, but it’s all crashing down because, I’m the only one who seems to be motivating myself. Everyone else around me simply dont seem to understand how hard I’m trying to fix myself as a human being and earn my place in the world, because I’m so broken. My obvious independent streak is telling me to keep going and dont wallow in your self-pity, because I’m strong enough to motivate myself and I don’t need these people. However, it feels like I’m on the edge of just giving up everything because it’s all too much and going too fast and I need time to stop and give myself some peace. But that’s not gonna happen.